What's your secret?

I don’t know how to react. He has always been the “save sex for marriage” type, and now this comes out.

I’m feeling so many things. I’m angry at him for lying to me. I’m jealous in a way. I’m angry at myself for being angry with him.

I feel like a terrible friend because I should be supporting him right now. I know that his emotions are all over the place, too.

I just can’t believe it. He’s a dad, a father. He’s responsible for another life.

Dear God, please forgive me for my selfishness. Please forgive me for focusing on my feelings and not controlling my emotions when my best friend needs me. Please help me to be there for him. Let him know that no matter what, I am here. God, let him be a good father to his son. I will do everything I can to support him, but the job is his. Lord, please mend our friendship. This last night has been stressful and it has put a strain on our relationship. God, I just want things to be simple again - like they were yesterday. But Your will be done, Lord, in all things. I know there is a reason for this happening. Your will be done. Amen.

And bro, I am disappointed. I am upset. But I’ll get over it. I will. Don’t worry. I’m sorry for being this way. I hope you know that your son will have the best “uncle” ever. I’ll be there for everything. Every birthday, every sickness, every hospital visit, every holiday, his first step, his first date, his first car. I’ve already fallen in love with him. I’ll treat him and love him like he’s my own son (you just get to change the diapers).

I love you, you’re my best friend; but it’s going to take time for me to get used to this. But, as always, I’m always here for you. I hope you know that.