May 2013
I feel most alone when I am in a room full of...
I want to break up with my partner. I just need to...
This is ridiculous, why do I always have to ruin my own happiness. I bought my girlfriend a watch for her birthday and was so excited, but the more I think about it, the more afraid i become of it being too much. At her birthday we will have been together for three months. It is not too much, is it?
My boyfriend is amazing. He’s been my best friend for years and we finally started dating not to long ago. This guy that attends school with me I recently became friends with and we text all the time. I tell my boyfriend that we talk so he doesn’t get suspicious, as if I’m hiding something. But this other guy is such a flirt, and I can’t help not flirting back. I wouldn’t cheat on my boyfriend,...
I really want to sell everything I own, buy a VW Minibus and travel the states and end up in Alaska underneath the Northern Lights at the end of my life journey. The only problem is finding someone else that will live that life with me. Staying in a motel once in awhile, cuddling up with the love of my life every night no matter where we ended up. We’d find odd jobs, love and ourselves all while...
The only reason I haven’t killed myself is cause I...
One year ago I thought you liked me. I put effort into it because I liked you. Then you left me and started dating her.[[MORE]]
Do you know how fucked up that made me? What was so special about her that you asked her out and not me? Why wasn’t I enough to make you want to be official with me?
When everything in the world and everyone told her to leave her, you didn’t. When your friends told...
Dear J, You told me you’re not yet ready. I’m not saying that you’re not worth it. But I’d rather stop showing that I care about you that much, before I hurt myself even more, because I don’t know anymore if there’s still a future for us .. and you don’t know that either. If you really like me, fight for me. If you don’t, then let’s stop this bullshit. I love you and I still do. I cared for...
O - The fact you love your girlfriend makes me so so sad. I hate myself for that.
I’m not okay.
I’m so scared of life.
i almost want someone to see me looking sad or the marks on my arm
almost want to tell someone everything
i want to skip the next year.
sometimes i want to skip my whole life.
Sir, I’ve told you I respect you. I admire you. I adore you. I’ve told you everything except, I love you. But I think I do, and I can never tell you.
<3
i miss
making inside jokes and laughing hysterically.[[MORE]] having friends to hangout with late at night without anything to worry about the next day. “stealing carts” and “drinking” because it was so bad ass at the time. checking out guys and giving them childish nicknames. easily cheating on tests rather than spending days on studying. having the best times without actually spending money or a...
I told you that i’m keeping my virginity and you’re okay with it. You said you wanted to meet up as friends but you wanted one thing. You said you wanted to kiss me. Trust me, I’m touched. And I said yes. Then we talk for over an hour seriously and you said you’ve changed. You said if you’ve changed earlier, I will still be your girlfriend. Right there and then, I told you that our gf/bf phase...
I sabotage all of my relationships and friendships. I don’t know why and while I’m trying to figure it out, everyone is leaving and it is my own fault.
I don’t want to be a nurse. And I can’t be one. I can’t be who I want to be because my family will ridicule me. I just find it easier to shut myself off from the world so I won’t have to see my former workmates and nurses in uniform, the very things that remind me that I’ve failed in my duty of being a breadwinner.
You know here’s the goddamn deal: I can live without you. The lot of you. I am a fully functioning, self-sufficient human being and I don’t need pretend friends who go about wrecking my life and secrets behind my back and then turn to me for favors like they deserve my help. If you don’t want me, say it. Let me go. If you want to fix whatever damage there is then fucking talk to me. But if you’re...
I hate how you don’t care as much as you used to...
I’m in love with my best friend, who I’ve known for 12 years, and I haven’t told him. Even after 3 years, I’ve kept it a secret from him, and it hurts me everyday to hear him talk about his girlfriend and see how happy he is with her. I wish he knew, how much I cared. Can’t he see that I love him with all I have?
I have fallen for an addict.
As if the fact that I crave the drugged lifestyle is problem enough.
so my ex and i decided to be lovers…….. what?!?
I’m in love with my best friend and my boyfriend and they both know it. Eventually I think I’m going to have to choose. I really don’t want to. I want both of them in my life. I like the way it is. I don’t want it to change.
I feel like a horrible friend. Probably the worst thing you could do as a friend is to hook up with the guy she is possibly interested in. [[MORE]]And the fact that we both submitted to this act is what makes it even more disgusting. In confined spaces of a dark bedroom where loud music and a small gathering of people were socialising outside of the bedroom… no one knew. As I’m writing this now...
I hate how I know you’ve read my messages and still reply for hours. I get that sometimes you don’t want to talk to me but who the hell likes being ignored? And then you get mad when I don’t reply you for just a few minutes.
i want to cheat on you and break your heart like...
I just saw a picture of you, and for a second I actually gave a fuck and missed you but then I saw you were wearing a button up that I let you borrow, and you never returned it, and realized I missed and gave a fuck about that button up way more than your actual existence, cool.
I’ve only been with you for three months, but I’m pretty sure I love you.
I’m too scared to tell you.
I’m pretty sure I’d lose you if I did tell you.
So, I guess I’ll just wait for you to tell me.
sing me to sleep, i don’t want to wake up on my...
I want to leave. When I say leave I mean I don’t...
I don’t need to hear you say those three words...
Frodo (punky), you lied about being pregnant, then “lost” the baby, and used a fake ultrasound, it’s a generic one too. It showed up on 20 different websites. You are in need of some mental help and I hope you get some.
I saw a picture of you and her. You both are ugly and fat. Thank you for breaking up with me when you did. You are such a loser. L-O-S-E-R.
I come to blog secret hoping to see you’ve...
I come to blog secret hoping to see you’ve...
mmm. nothing has ever happened. nothing will ever happen. I was finally moving on from this exhausting case, but then you came back. nothing is still ever going to happen. it just restored a false sense of hope. i cannot wait until i never have to talk to her again, because then i will never think of you again. however, it’s been nice to have you in my mind for the past two years, thanks for being...
M, I really like you. I may deny the shit out of it but when I was 18 and you lead me on that’s when it all started. I’m 21 now and we started talking again after a year and these feelings are resurfacing. I hated you for everything 2 years ago, but now that we are talking again I am just fine. I will just go on in life without you or anyone knowing how I feel about you though. It is nice...
I walked away from someone who I knew I couldn't...
It hasn’t been that long since we stopped talking but I must admit that there were many times where I was tempted to text/call her to see how she’s doing. But I know that I shouldn’t.[[MORE]] I struggle everyday hoping that this misery would end. I know that I tried but things were just not meant to be. She didn’t love me, she just loved the things I did for her. I just wish that it didn’t...
Spencer,
I am falling in love. I am watching myself change every time I think of you. Before, I was this girl who believed that everyone is disposal; I believed everyone was replaceable. I turn and run away from relationships I thought was unworthy of my time. I never found anybody worth holding onto before. I was always doubtful of God. I never believed that anybody would be there for me....
“You know what ? Fuck it ! I am done being careful about everyone’s well-being when it is obvious that the opposite is not true. I’m going to do whatever I feel like doing without considering everyone’s opinion. Deal with it.”
“My friend slept with the guy I liked a couple of months ago though she knew how I felt about him. Today I’ve discovered that he liked me too but decided to go for my friend when she told him I was already with someone. I don’t know against whom I’m the most angry: her for making lies or him for not even checking the facts.”
I just get depressed so easily. Its like an every day thing. I just want someone to love me. [[MORE]] That’s it. Even if they love me as a friend, that’s fine. I just feel like I put so much into every relationship I have and it is never reciprocated. Even the people who claim that they care so much still don’t take the time out to love me. I just need to feel something, and I need someone...
Sometimes I feel compelled to loose my virginity. My best friend lost hers on her 18th birthday and everybody at her dinner party has had sex but me. I almost feel obligated to have sex and I know I shouldn’t feel like this, but I just feel like my best friend’s innocence has been taken away from her. I just feel so childish when I speak of my virginity, I know it should be a sacred thing but why...
I still hate you with everything that I am. What you did to me happened six years ago, but it still eats away at me. [[MORE]]I don’t ever admit it but you broke me. I was a completely different person in high school because of what you did. People say I changed for the better because of it, because they don’t fully understand what changed in me, and how much. You created my social anxiety. I...
For the past week, I have realized and opened my eyes to the real me. I couldn’t see it for myself, but through the people that I loved the most. I have realized that I am arrogant, hard headed, naive, and very stubborn. Not only did I finally realize this about myself, but I lost two people who really meant the world to me. I promised myself I’m not going to do this to anybody else, but now, I...
I like you a lot, but i know that you will never...
This Can't Be L***...
You keep me in on this never ending tightrope that hangs above nothing. When I tilt too much, you balance me again. When I don’t want to move, you push me along. Then I jump and finally feel that freedom I have yearned for so long, but land back on that damn thing wondering if it’s you who keeps extending it, or if I’ve reached the peak of my sanity.
“are we angels? we dont make mistakes? just give him another chance will you?”
“are we angels? we dont have feelings? chances are given to those who deserved it in the first place. not for those who knows how to screw it up.”
before you judge a person; or question her actions and decisions, make sure you know damn well how hard it is to be in her situation.
I stayed away. I tried my best, I really am.
But if you happen to come around, you know I will always take you back, without thinking twice.
I wish you know I will do the no-string-attached thing, since it’s not exactly the thing I could advertise about.
And since you avoid me and we rarely talk, anymore.
I miss you. I miss the late night conversations the inside jokes, the urgent call when I tell you I’m not okay, every day that you asked me how my day went, and how we always end up ranting and laughing about the stupid things we did over the day.[[MORE]] These may be moments I miss but these wouldn’t be possible without you. And I miss you. I miss the music references, the funny memes I used...
I wish more than anything that you could have the chance to see yourself through my eyes. That you could have the chance to see how incredibly gorgeous you are, how unbelievably charming and adorable you can be. I wish that you just for once could see how amazing you are. It saddens me that you genuinely believe that you are nothing special, nothing outside the ordinary. [[MORE]]When I compliment...
I’m not used to one specific guy not wanting me and it’s killing me. I’ve always had guy on top of guy throwing their self at me but you’re different. You’re not and maybe that’s why I care about you ten times more. You’re a challenge, one I do intend to win.
